All Dried Up

"First of all I guess that I should say that I AM SORRY, to me there is way too much to sex when I go to bed I like to watch some tv and go to sleep. He thinks that I do nothing all day haha there are 8 kids all still in school between the 2 of us and a grandson that I watch all day and evening so his parents can go to school work and sleep. There is always fights and things to do with our kids and now grandson. I have a thing for smells and sorry but bad smokey breath keeps from even wanting to kiss him not to mention that he tries to swallow my whole face when he does kiss me. Then he wants to talk all big and bad after we do have sex like he is some stallion or something. I have been to the doctor differant times and asked them about it and they have said that its because I have "too much on my plate" I was put on a patch but it broke me out. I try I cant help it that I dont "feel" like it but once in a great while I am sorry. Also him whinning about hurting is no turn on. As far as not allowed to see my face I dont know why that is either but I know that if I think he is looking at me then I will get nothing out of it. I think maybe I am allergic to sperm or something because everytime we do do it I itch for days after. And one final thing 9 years ago when we met I told him that I wasnt into sex and all that kissing he said he wasnt either so he knew. "

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"To me someone grabbing himself isn't a turn on and telling me if I don't then he is gonna go find it somewhere else or divorce me. I don't think that just doing it helps anything except maybe his ego. I don't like having my hair pulled or his hands around my neck either or when he acts like his fingers are gonna go into my butt. Also it is usually the same ole same ole position why cant he do a little work on his part,besides him wanting me bent over something. And another thing he needs to stop volunteering to keep the grandbaby all night. Maybe too if he would make me feel like I was important to him and not last on his list would make me feel better about everything. When we first met we did have sex all the time but I didnt feel like I was doing it all around the house, he helped with everything. Now according to him its all my job. I feel like sex is a "job" too and thats not right either. Should sex be a job? I thought it should be something you enjoy!!
I think this is almost as bad as some talk show. I really dont think this is something you should hear about on the radio and then put on for all to read and judge you. And so you all know we have tried marriage councling two differant times and after going once or twice he wont go anymore its all funny when we are picking at me but when the table is turnned its stupid and he wont go anymore. There is awhole lot more to all this than anyone knows or do they need to know. The facts are I am far from perfect and I can say that, but neither is he and Lord forbid he ever admit to that, its easier to put the blame on everyone else. I think that a marriage is something you never have to stop working on. I also think that the whole sex thing comes when other things are going in the right direction. I think that if someone is calling you names and that there is fighting and bickering going on, not just between the two of us, but also how we are getting along with our kids, goes along with it all. A divorce is the last thing I want I really dont care if he BEATS me with this because no one honestly knows the who what when etc of this whole story! So all you that are thinking these bad things of me soo what its so easy to judge. I dont think this is something that will ever be resolved not as long as there are no compromises going on!
Just one more thing the whole buying it thing thats a good one because I think just the other day he was asking me how much for some, I told him he couldnt afford it but I thought we were just playing around. And the whole kid thing I dont understand because I have 8 children not 5.But I think that may be another story for you all....."