The BAD Mother

"In 1999 I married the "love of my life", or so I thought... I was 18 so I really didn't know any better... In the course of 5 years we produced 2 kids and moved away from our home state... Since then we have gotten divorced... He kicked me out of our home (literally moved me out while I was at WORK) and left me homeless... While I was trying to figure things out and get some semblance of order in my life, he filed for divorce and was given custody of our daughters because I was homeless... This happened in 2004 and, even now, I am only "allowed" to see the girls when he thinks it's ok... I have not so much as seen them for Mothers day or my birthday since the divorce... I am finally on my own in my own house after 4 years of blood, sweat and tears (and paying out the nose in child support)... So, now I have plenty of room for the girls...

I asked him what was happening for Thanksgiving, I really want to see the girls... I miss them terribly... He said that I would not be able to see them for more than a couple hours at HIS house because he does not want them setting foot in my house... But to the girls he says that I am a "bad mother" who has abandoned them..."

New Side Updates
"Excuse me? To imply that I cheated or have a drug habit is insulting... I did what I could to be a good wife, with what little knowledge I had on how to be one... I could not help the fact that he kicked me out... He came home one night pissy drunk, kicked in the door and yelled at me... The older daughter remembers this, she was 4 at the time... I told him to sleep it off and we would talk the next day... I had to work early the next morning... I came home to the locks being changed and (some of) my things thrown all over the yard... I was ignorant to my rights so I packed it all up in my car and slept in it for a long time, taking showers in the gym at my work... I couldn't even afford an attorney... His $90K a year job paid for some high-priced woman to represent him...

And you're all right... There is WAY more to this story than what is posted... I see that my ex doesn't want to say but he knows what he did to me was wrong... He would tell me all the time that he would've never left me but contradicts himself by acknowledging the fact that he kicked me out... No matter who physically left the house, he abandoned me after 5 years of marriage...

I am not, by any meaning of the word, perfect... I made my mistakes with him... But I do not deserve him taking our children away completely... He uses them as a weapon against me because he's still mad at me..."