I am so scared, worried, and depressed. Please take a look into this and help me.

I am a first year Medical student and I am in one of the oldest Medical Schools in the world. Right now my parents are paying loads for my Medical School (education about US55,000 per year ).

Two years ago it was my dream to win a place in Medical School. I worked to hard to make sure I got in, and I did.

However, I failed a few of the exams I have had in first year in medical school, and I feel I will fail first year in Uni, which means that I will have to resit the papers in the summer.

It's nearing the end of my first year in uni and for the past year I find it hard to adjust to uni life. I keep feeling homesick and I can't find myself studying because I miss home so much. I am in a foreign country and my parents are across the globe.

Every time I call my parents up, and they ask how is everything, I say, everything is okay, and when they ask about my exams I just say I passed, which was obviously lying because I didn't want to disappoint them. They don't know that I failed a few of my papers and I have an exam due in a few days. I feel like I am going to fail first year and if I do, I don't know how to explain to my parents when I go home in a few weeks.

Above all this failing, I have a second chance, I can resit the papers I have failed in first year two weeks before 2nd year commences and if I pass the resits I can continue on as normal with my medical studies in second year. If I don't pass my resits, I will have to repeat year one all over again, as in I will be in the year below the people who are currently in my batch next year. However, I am very confident that I will ace my resits and progress on to second year to be with all my other friends.

I love my parents very much. I know they want to see me succeed to be a doctor.

Please help me. I feel so useless and I have been crying. I know that when I get home I will have the courage to study for my resits and eventually pass my resits and progress to year 2 normally but I keep asking myself will my parents ever forgive me for lying to them about my results??
By maximillan 7 years ago :: General
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