How can i STOP Crying everyday Over Michael Jacksons Death? This is SERIOUS!

So its almost going to be 4 months & everyday i still mourn the Loss of Legendary Icon Michael Jackson! & if you know me Its Understandable cause ive been his DIEHARD FAN for years! but i dont cry in front of my family or friends ONLY behind closed doors. & i've been having so Many dreams about him talking to me & stuff! So i litterally feel Half of my heart died & went with him that very same day 6-25 & i DON'T like any other Singer thats out there right Now. to me they all sound Horrible & NONE of them can even Dance Close to what Michael was like:(