How to get over cheating boyfriend/father of my 6month old son?

We've been together for 2 1/2 years now..and ever since bub was born our intimacy has been lacking..due to myself..at first i couldnt have sex or barely walk for that matter for the first 2weeks and after that time sex was difficult and painful and basically just haven't had any sex drive due to being a first time mum and awl that comes with it (hormone changes, sleepless nights/days etc)..whereas before we have always had a pretty healthy sex life even during pregnancy..
this has taken a major toll on our relationship..

so recently we were fighting and he pretty much spent a few days away from home.. i ultimately asked him if he had been "satisfied" by nebody else since i hadn't been..he denied it and denied it but i forced it out of him because i knew he was lying.. then he told me he had gotten a BJ from some random chick while he was out one night during those few days..the next day i asked him if there were any other times and he admitted to two other times...once at the very beginning of our relationship, the next when i was pregnant..it just wrenches my heart out to know that even when we were at the best in our relationship he still could cheat..it doesnt make sense to me..he says he's willing to do whatever it takes to make things right with me..and i have allowed him a second and LAST chance..i just don't know how i could actually trust him again..ever! any one else been in the same situation..how did it turn out?? i love this guy and i want things to work out for us..i just dont know how i can find it in my heart to fully trust him again..
By 15 years ago :: Dating
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