WANT TO DIE ?! :(( dont know what to do ..

WELL, ITS HARD FOR ME, IM 18 COLLEGE STUDENT, MY FATHER AND I ARE NOT CLOSE, MY MOTHER HAS A LOVER, A LESBIAN I HAVE A BROKEN FAMILY, MY FATHER HAD SEXUALLY ABUSED MY YOUNGER SISTER, MY MOTHER IS LIVING WITH HER LESBIAN .. T.T