i swear to god im going to ******* end up killing myself one of these days!!

im sick and freaking tired of all the ********, and i just really dont care anymore. and its getting really hard to keep up the happy cheery facade!! day by day things just seem to be getting worse and worse, and im just getting more ******* frustrated with it all.
and yes i know none of you want to here my pathetic little sob story, and are all going to tell me things will get better, and to think of the people i will be hurting….and blah blah blah. but guess what, i really could care less right now!!!