I need help? I just want 2 die?

I need money to feed me and my 3 kids and I think being a prostitute is probably the quickest way. I'm 25, the dad left, I can't get child support, he killed himself, it was too much for him and now I it has taken a toll on me. I wish god just take me away from the pain every day, I don't have a job or anything, I'm over my cousin house using this computer and I just feel so sad. No one is here to help me, I am alone. I need to get money quick because I can't pay my cousin rent anymore, I lost my job and I can't find another one. My kids cry everyday because my kids are hungry, and they need clothes, I just can't do it anymore. I cry everyday hoping that I die, I wanted to kill myself many times but I just don't have the courage to do, why do I have to endure so much pain alone? God why?